Well I am trying to write a Fitness Friday post for my girl Julie, I just love her. But not feeling like I am a good example at all.
I lost a lot of weight back in 2000 but after my pops died, I just didn’t care anymore and let it all come back on. In fact, seemed like I was purposely not caring for myself and putting it all back on.
Well now I am a whole lot of woman. I am sweet, smart and full of charisma, but that doesn’t help me get motivated. Fact is I can’t go past two weeks on plans I make for myself.
Excuses! I always have an excuse. Recently its been the stress, ankle pain, miscarriage, lack of sleep, the babies getting sick, then me getting sick oh and breaking my toe, running out of the right foods in the house, can’t afford it and just plain not feeling like it.
Depression! I start out motivated and doing a great job, but then I get mad at myself for getting in this position in the first place. I mean really, if I would have kept my head on, not ballooned up and I wouldn’t be totally PO’d at myself for being the size that I am.
I have to change the cycle. My health is great. My heart is happy except for the occasional spasm (cardiologist said is normal.) But that is not going to last. I am asking organs, muscles and joints to work triple time to support me and my fat habit! It has to end. I have to make choices that I know my body deserves. It has been good to me and I need to be good back to it.
I don’t have a plan and I don’t know my next step. What I do know is I am going to forgive myself and I am going to start making healthy choices. I am going to tell myself the same thing I am going to tell Julie.
I love you hun. It will be ok, all of it! BIG HUGS..
Hi Anjanette, I can totally relate! I wold get mad at myself for getting big and then I wouldn’t have the self-confidence to believe in myself that I can lose the weight. Then I would eat to comfort myself! That’s what my FF post is about, getting and keeping motivation. For me it was actuallly believing that I can lose the weight and it has kept me motivated! You can do it too, don’t focus on the big picture, just start small, 5lbs, 10lbs, whatever works for you. You’ll start to feel better REALLY soon when you’re making healthier choices.
Christine
Hi Anjanette,
First of all I am sorry to hear about your miscarriage, I didn’t know until now, that alone is hard.
You can lose the weight, if you ever need a friend, or support, just head to my blog, or email me and I will help. I get so depressed. I put on a 100 extra pounds that I didnt need when I had a foot injury, I have 30 off, but have a long way, I take it one day at a time.
I wish you well, and celebrate every healthy choice, I jump up and down whenever I dont grab a candy bar at the grocery store:)
BIG HUGS,
Sara
Thank you Sara, I love the hugs! It helps to have such supportive friends, it really does.
I really feel for you! I’ve been able to get back into exercising recently, but a lot of times I really have to push myself. I keep thinking if I would just eat healthier, I’d have more energy and working out wouldn’t be as hard, but I haven’t gotten there yet.
One thing that helped me get started with exercising was to put it on my list of things to do for the day. Being a list maker, it really helped to be able to cross it off!
I hope you can find what works for you!
Trust me, i know how hard it all is. You see what I’m going through right now. Just writing something and taking accountability is going to set you on the right path. So will IMing me every day. That helps, too.